Do I put on a façade to others? That I’m not my true, full self and they think ‘why is Sai one person when I meet him and completely different later? Does it have to do something with people who I’m romantically interested in? Because I don’t think I necessarily have this issue with people who are just friends. I may not open up to them fully but does that mean I’m a different person? My intentions are inherently different when I’m interested in someone as a potential partner. But I need to train myself to not have those different intentions. Because it then affects what I say, how I act, the tone of my voice, etc. When my intentions change, all these other things the other person will perceive and feel. And it may come off as I’m a completely different person. So have the intention that I will be my full self in any situation. Would that change the situation though? “I am my full self.” Preceded by “I accept myself” with others and myself. Ask myself if I am saying things because I truly feel those words or simply because someone wants to hear them. What if it’s both? If it’s what I fully and truly felt in the moment though, then I don’t think there’s anything to change necessarily. If I’m true to myself in the moment, then I can’t dictate what people will think of me and I shouldn’t shy away from expressing that full self.
I think the thing here is the issue is the fact that I can move on from external things very quickly. I accept my external world pretty easily. But I’ve realized it takes time and thought to accept myself. I haven’t come to terms with who I am quite yet. Well I still don’t know who I am fully quite yet. I’m still discovering that. As soon as I discover a new part of me though, I must begin the process of acceptance. Integration of that aspect of myself into the rest of my full self. And determining how does this new piece fit in and affect the existing self. The thing is my ability to move on and accept things externally very quickly and internally slowly can lead to long term emotional and psychological debt. Accepting things in the context of the world quickly is a strength. Accepting things in the context of the self is a weakness. In Myers Briggs, acceptance of Thinking is quick. Acceptance of Feeling is slow.
There are no real strengths and weaknesses. And everything is a strength and a weakness. It just depends on the context and the extent to which that characteristic is utilized. My individualistic ability is a strength when solving things independently but a weakness when it comes to empathy and understanding other people’s situations. My focus is a strength when only needing to complete one task but when I need to get multiple things done, I can’t necessarily judge all that.
So the question becomes do I intentionally try to put myself in situations that accentuate my strength or contexts that expose my weakness so that I can grow from it? Naturally, I think a balance of both is necessary. But to do this intentionally, I have to put effort into it, and knowing me, I need to create a system around it lol.
So there’s the SWOT Analysis already. But how do I create contexts as a function in this framework?
Side note, I’m a master of the world and how it related to me. I’m terribly incompetent of my self and how I relate to the world.
I think to accept the world. I talk to accept myself.
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I need to boil up the strengths from Strengthsfinder into qualities / characteristics so that the context determines if it’s actually a strength or not.
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Ok so can I apply the same logic to opportunities and threats? A threat to one party may be an opportunity for another. The internal factors of strengths and weaknesses are determined by the external circumstances. That would stand to reason that the external factors of opportunities and threats are determined by internal reasons.
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So how do I integrate both of these? Write in the SWOT as I normally would. Then boil up the qualities in the strengths and weaknesses and the situation in the opportunities and threats. Then write these in. Then fill in the contexts and identities that determine if they’re really a S or W or O or T. Then fill in the rest of the expanded quadrant for Attack, Reinforce, etc. strategies.
[final SWOT diagram]
Let’s build this and utilize it and see if it’s just nice in theory or works in practice!
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