Guess I didn't journal on my birthday. Whoops 🤷🏾♂️ Grateful for all the people in my life who took the time to wish me happy birthday (as well as those who didn't lol).
My days always start off really well. Then as the day goes on and winds down, more decisions are made that my soul doesn't align with. This could definitely be an imprint for why I start off projects really well and then they fizzle out. Or if I don't have the same momentum during the middle of execution as I do during the initial stages of it. That's why I love planning. When things are less variable and more likely to go according to plan. But as factors get introduced, the plan starts to adapt, update, and sometimes disintegrate. I need to create daily, weekly, monthly, quarterly, yearly, project, and life plans that have built-in flexibility as things pop up. How do I use the concept of indistractability here? Since it's true that 90% of distractions come from within, and some of those lead to small actions of going down a rabbit hole, I must eliminate that as much of that as I can. Phone on do not disturb is a good start to control external triggers. For internal thoughts though, let's scratch that itch by writing or typing it out and not using any mental bandwidth on that thought. And then go back as quickly as possible to the task I was working on. Sometimes it feels like a for loop, where I get sucked in to several things at once but I gotta finish one before I go back up a level, and then another, and so on. If I can cultivate indistractability, I can finish one loop, so basically a normal function, before starting a new function. Even while writing this, I've been distracted by myself. So it's just about awareness of what I'm thinking. That's also how the Samatha and Vipassana meditations can help with focus and awareness. I guess even over the course of a task, it'll mirror my deficiency of losing momentum over time. So the bigger things like projects and yearly plans can be changed into what I'm looking for by finishing with deliberateness and focus any task I'm working on. Even finishing my sentences verbally strongly and finitely can help plant the imprint of undeniable definitiveness. I do finish my runs strong, which the last .1 - .2 miles are at a faster pace than the rest of the run. So it's positive that I'm flexing the mental (and physical) muscles there. So let's finish literally everything that I do with focus, confidence, and intention and the rest will follow.
My IG account also got deactivated yesterday for whatever reason. So had to respond to an automated email with a code and picture. I'm guessing that it was because of the newsletter that I screenshotted in my post but people screenshot stuff all the time and post it. So Idrky why this happened. Just gotta go through the process of trying to reactivate it.
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