Yesterday got off to a solid start but after the work happy hour in the evening, it went all downhill from there.
I'm sure another impact is when I tell people of all the 'great' things I'm doing, the Universe immediately drops me from that mountain top. I may have come across as self-righteous with Alex and showing no humility and gratitude in the moment or afterwards. I've listed a couple of improvements in my list journal to help myself to continue the beneficial activities I'm doing and the mindset I'm approaching life with. Let's say what I'm about to do out loud so it reinforces my thoughts and words and actions. If what I say aloud sounds ludicrous, then I have an auditory clue as to how I would feel in the future after the event is done. Asking myself explicitly and aloud "Would the person I want to become do this?" or "How will I feel about this in 10 minutes, 10 hours, 10 days, 10 months?" can assist with the current self vs future self discussion and internal dialogue and battle sometimes. Also, saying and adding "...& I hope to continue doing these things" when sharing what I'm doing with people can help in not 'jinxing myself.' B/c I want to share what I'm doing from a place of openness, humility, gratitude, compassion, and love.
This is what the process of improvement looks like. It's not going to be a steady increase day over day. But an upwards overall trajectory with some valleys along the way. As long as I learn something every day, from the 'good' and the 'bad', I will undoubtedly become the person I envision myself being.
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