Continuing on from yesterday.
Conference in Chicago. Lots of notes from the conference, mostly applicable to Marketing. I have to spend way more time being alone or comfortable being with those I perceive as higher up / better than me. I feel much more free when I’m independent rather than with someone. I had this issue during tabling in college also. Still haven’t learned anything in those years.
I’m good with creativity in terms of getting ideas and contextualizing them to be useful for us. The value in going to those conferences is also in the connections. I can do a better job of that overall. How I make an impression on industry leaders is vital to show my value, knowledge, inquisitiveness, etc.
Receiving feedback from _____ via Dan and Alex was a gut punch. Makes me feel like I’m inadequate at my job. That I don’t provide any value. Sometimes, I just need someone else to run my ideas by and I don’t have that with anyone who has the combination of bandwidth, experience, knowledge and hole-poking ability. It feels like an island a lot of the time. Maybe that’s what it feels like to be a CEO.
I just keep emotionally hurting people. Whether in a romantic sense or at work. I just have so little empathy that when I try to do something nice it backfires. The conundrum that I’m in is if I don’t have answers, franchisees get upset at what the value of Marketing is. Then when I provide answers, it comes off as arrogant and belittling. It’s a lose-lose situation.
I’m not good at enrolling people. At explaining something so people buy in. I live in my own world. Projecting onto others my own values and beliefs. Judging others for not getting something when I’m the root cause.
Am I looking at communication wrong? That it’s not about me. It’s not about the small techniques to improve my communication. It’s about how deeply I connect with others. Do people want to be in my presence? Do people connect with my energy? It’s not about information dissemination, it’s how deeply do they connect with one or two things in the message.
I think it boils down to trust. No one trusts me internally or externally as their marketing consultant. I just have to continue to become an expert in it, because I’m not now. Nor am I perceived as one. It’s because they don’t really have any other option. I’m sure I’d be their last pick to help with marketing if they had a choice.
I seem to answer all the questions except the one that people actually asked. I’d say that’s because Idk the actual answer to people’s question — deficit of knowledge or experience — and inability to discern when people want short answers vs long answers.
The low emotional intelligence. I gain that through quality connection with others. Which I’ve been lacking my entire life. Which is partly why I seek refuge alone and in words. It’s a safe space. Too safe sometimes. My inability to put myself in others’ shoes before I say or do something has been one of the biggest traits that doesn’t serve me.
I was weighted down by still being attached in a social media and email list perspective to _____. I wouldn’t want someone I broke up with still sending me emails, even if automatic to me. Getting rid of those loose ends felt like a big weight off my shoulders. It was a long time coming that I learned the lesson of empathy again.
Lol if I just had more empathy, I could be a better version of myself right now. Of course I must go through the proper journey to have that deeply resonate and in my identity.
When I master the art of enrollment, that’s when I can unlock so much more. I can’t wait for it though.
How do I seek out opportunities to enroll others? That’s what I must continue to ask myself and execute on to gain that skill.
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