Where do I start???!!!
Yesterday went to Stacks kitchen (again) after my normal routine in the morning. Ordered a bit more than I could eat, but the pancakes were amazing! Then recorded a couple of podcasts after I got home so I'm set there for the next 1-2 weeks. 2nd one I was talking in circles so let's see if anyone actually listens to it.
Chatted with Veena for an hour+ after that, so it was nice catching up with her after a few months. Definitely learned a bit more about the matching process and what specialty she wants to go into.
Then I played some FIFA, first time playing FIFA 21 since I had purchased it, so I'm 2-2-1 in Seasons so far. The last game was the best as I was down 3-0 and 5-1 and still came back to draw it 5-5 as Liverpool vs Barcelona.
Then audio recorded entries from my first written journal. Spent a good 45 min - 1 hour on it but only through a ~month so far. I have 4 more months to go. Good to revisit these entries even just after 6-9 months and see how I was thinking and how I've changed. Having the audio recording as well as the text of it in addition to the picture (hopefully) ensures all the various ways I can continue to preserve those moments.
Didn't get to Chose not to prioritize my weekly / monthly review yesterday. I was going to do it after dinner but instead decided to call home instead. I had dinner downstairs this time, and with leaving my phone upstairs, I got to experience the process of eating properly and without any distractions, I could just freely think. Don't know why I don't do it more often.
Mom showed me their new bed set that they had ordered a couple of months ago - looks sick in their room. They're continuing to not put any respeck on my room's name as they're just throwing anything that's basically staged for somewhere else or the dumpster in my room for the time being lol. Maybe I should just by the desk first and then let them worry about the bed afterwards.
Finished off the night reading Irene Watson's Human Consciousness book, which is Volume 1 of a 3-Volume series. Basically, it's the convos / messages directly from God and it's eye opening so far. Idt I was quite ready for what I read last night though. Read a few chapters, but the last of which was probably the most impactful, fundamental, transformational chapter that I've ever read in my life!! It answers the question why humans are here on Earth. This is literally the answer to 1 of the 2 single 'biggest mysteries' in human existence: Who am I? Why am I? One of the other chapters previously actually kinda explained who we are. I kinda knew it, but not with such clarity, which is crazy.
Essentially, we're just holograms and all imagining this physical world. We are actually God come down in human form, but we just may not have realized it yet. It's all an illusion LMAOOO. We are just energy - a bundle of quantum physics equations. We are actually this energy, this soul, this Atma, this life force, this light body. The human piece is just all a facade. So that answers who am I simply. Next is why am I?
Now this was the part I haven't heard or read about before, so it was epiphanic. The way it's said in the book, we were all once upon a time all in light body form, in a plane let's say called Home. Basically the energy, frequency, and vibrations dropped of some souls so in 'an emergency,' the Earth and everything we see and physically experience was created. Those souls literally just fell off the energetic grid. A place was created where souls could acclimate to the lower frequencies with a thicker atmosphere and when they brought up their energy, rejoin them back 'Home.' Lots of early souls went back. Abundance was the norm. However, some people now began to think this body and physical world were their true selves. So that's when karma began to play a bigger role. And each successive generation kept accumulating this karma. And kept thinking more and more that we are this body and mind. Instead of soul progression back Home, there was soul regression. So we're essentially just all trying to raise our energy levels high enough so that we can go back Home and experience the Universe(s) in our light body form.
I know I sound absolutely crazy but I just started laughing and crying simultaneously after reading that chapter. I couldn't NOT share it. It actually makes more sense now. Crazy. Unbelievable.
So that left me in a God-like mood (and with many questions) heading to sleep. But as I was pondering what I'd just read, I'm not sure how I can choose to have biological children now that I know I'd just be contributing to more human suffering. That's a topic I'll have to think about deeper but that was just my initial thought after reading this. Had other questions too obviously - like 'Is human death actually good then? Does death mean the souls return Home to God? Are there a set # of souls and there are a certain amount totaling up to whatever it is on Earth and in the subtle body? Wow.
But to experience this Godliness, I slept at about 11-11:15 pm. I said / felt grateful and went to sleep with the focused intention of waking up at 3:45 am. And without any alarm, I opened my eyes this morning, checked the clock and it read '3:45.' Not a minute too soon or too late. Feel 100% fresh too. I'm tasting this Godliness - I want to experience more!!
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