Big day on Wednesday as we are on our way *knock on wood* of receiving the Electrolux protocols. Had a good convo with Alex where I told him I failed regarding LaundroLab Tech. He said I didn't and that it was understandable with the priorities that I was working on. Felt better in that moment but still feel very guilty about it. Trying to process those emotions. I did tell him that I want as direct feedback as possible. So hopefully I'll receive it going forward. I felt like an impostor though when people were saying all the hard work I put into getting the protocols. Bullshit. First of all, it wasn't even me. And second, the work that I did do, it wasn't hard at all. It was easy af. Just took a long-ass time from when we initially asked for them. I wish people would just tell me how they feel about me and my work straight up. I want it as direct and as harsh as possible. I want to feel personally attacked. I want to immerse myself in what that person might be feeling towards me. Then channel that towards something constructive. Harnessing the potential of that power and energy.
Something mentioned in Indistractable was having office hours so anyone can drop by and chat with me. I want more feedback so here's an idea - let me block off 1 hour every / every other Friday for an hour. I'll be in a conference room and anyone who wants to stop by, can. Call it Feedback Friday. Allow time and space for those 1x1 convos to happen so people can share what they want in that setting. And I don't have to schedule one-offs with them or wait til the next scheduled 1x1 with them (which would be once a quarter). Can be in person or digital. I'm looking forward to this.
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